8+ weeks

Now I see why I don't really blog. (Among other reasons) its hard to keep up with this thing.

also, i have stopped being anywhere near coherent enough to type in the middle of the night. i am just stone cold tired. this little 11 lb. turkey is giving us a run for our money. we have tried everything now: every style of breastfeeding and every kind of formula, dairy free diets, fenugreek, castor oil massage, regular massage, frenulum clip, swaddling, shushing, bouncing, lactation support group, mama pilates, cranio-sacral therapy - and STILL - this little one just wants to scream half the live-long day.

in some ways it seems like he is growing out of it... but its one step foward, two steps back. just when it seems like he might start sleeping or hanging out more independently (a full 20 min nap this morning on the changing pad - wow!) he is delicate and twitchy, and spazzes out every time his sleepy little back touches the mattress pas of the co-sleeper. last night i let him fall asleep on my chest every time - i have to admit it was warm and lovely to snuggle w/him - but not for lack of trying to use the co-sleeper and get our marital bed back.

there's more to talk about - our first father's day, our encounters with other "easier" babies, our two-month old checkup tomorrow. but i am too tired...
well if his vaccinations feel anything like the ones they gave me, he will really have something to cry about tomorrow. and perhaps i will have more waking hrs in which to write...